The Mind Of Black Noize
Everything that makes the composition of me...poetry, music, and thoughts.
Monday, May 31, 2010
T.M.O.B.N.: (Money) With (Tattoo) ("Dreamsz")
Yooo! Waddup? Aite so I just gotta few lil updates about myself. First, I finally got a fuckin job! Im working at Opry Mills for the flood relief. It's goin pretty good. They gotta nigga slavin for 12 hours, but hey...the pay is good and I aint gon complain bout wat Him Whose Highest has blessed me with..agreed? Agreed.
Second, Im FINALLY gettin the tattoo I've been wanting..well half of it. Im getting "Keep Me In Your Prayers" on my upper right arm. I'll def have pics posted on here when I get it next week. Later in June, Ima go back and get prayer hands in handcuffs...the links of the handcuffs will be music notes. Why am I getting it all? People who know me WELL know that I get tested ALOT. So im saying Keep Me In Your Prayers. The prayer hands piece came to me in a day dream. Basically, the hands being cuffed resembles to me that I am locked down to my religion and I cant stray away from it in order to be successful. The music notes linking the handcuffs resembles the fact that in order for my music aspirations and dreams to materialize I must stay with my faith.
Also, I wanna get another tat in July. It'll be of a moon and a sun split up on my shoulder blades. It plays into my whole "DayDreams" concept which is basically that the sun and the moon are like my yin and yang. The sun resembles the bright and vibrant side of myself whereas the moon resembles the cool, calm, collected part of myself. Under the moon half it'll say "Sleep with no regrets" and under the sun half it will say, "Awake with no fear"...ya like?? If ya do, DONT TAKE MY SHIT! lol..And later in THE FUTURE..I MIGHT get a tattoo tear..for my auntie. I loved that woman, R.I.P...of course, that'll B when a record deal kicks in lol.
Last, the mixtape! I have finally set a date for it. July 4th! Wat betta date? Da shit'll be explosive...sounds kinda corny but I dont care! Lol, I've been workin on this damn mixtape for the longest and I'm ready 2 let ya'll hear it. Im fuckin with DJ Whitey on hosting and recording it. So believe that one way or another, my shit's getting heard. And Ohhh yeaaa, be on the lookout for The Remedy's, Snap Sessions Vol 2 aka SSV2. That'll be droppin soon as well. Things are really starting 2 happen mane. I told ya'll I had some big plans for this year. Time to make some dreams reality. Anyways, thanx 4 readin (Middle, Index) Holla!
Second, Im FINALLY gettin the tattoo I've been wanting..well half of it. Im getting "Keep Me In Your Prayers" on my upper right arm. I'll def have pics posted on here when I get it next week. Later in June, Ima go back and get prayer hands in handcuffs...the links of the handcuffs will be music notes. Why am I getting it all? People who know me WELL know that I get tested ALOT. So im saying Keep Me In Your Prayers. The prayer hands piece came to me in a day dream. Basically, the hands being cuffed resembles to me that I am locked down to my religion and I cant stray away from it in order to be successful. The music notes linking the handcuffs resembles the fact that in order for my music aspirations and dreams to materialize I must stay with my faith.
Also, I wanna get another tat in July. It'll be of a moon and a sun split up on my shoulder blades. It plays into my whole "DayDreams" concept which is basically that the sun and the moon are like my yin and yang. The sun resembles the bright and vibrant side of myself whereas the moon resembles the cool, calm, collected part of myself. Under the moon half it'll say "Sleep with no regrets" and under the sun half it will say, "Awake with no fear"...ya like?? If ya do, DONT TAKE MY SHIT! lol..And later in THE FUTURE..I MIGHT get a tattoo tear..for my auntie. I loved that woman, R.I.P...of course, that'll B when a record deal kicks in lol.
Last, the mixtape! I have finally set a date for it. July 4th! Wat betta date? Da shit'll be explosive...sounds kinda corny but I dont care! Lol, I've been workin on this damn mixtape for the longest and I'm ready 2 let ya'll hear it. Im fuckin with DJ Whitey on hosting and recording it. So believe that one way or another, my shit's getting heard. And Ohhh yeaaa, be on the lookout for The Remedy's, Snap Sessions Vol 2 aka SSV2. That'll be droppin soon as well. Things are really starting 2 happen mane. I told ya'll I had some big plans for this year. Time to make some dreams reality. Anyways, thanx 4 readin (Middle, Index) Holla!
Sunday, May 9, 2010
" A Queen Can Raise A King " by Black Noize
I definitely had to write something for today (Mother's Day). My mother is a great & beautiful woman that has worked SO hard and she deserves MUCH more in this life. I love you mom!!!! Check me out:
"Coming in this world
Life is always an uncertain journey
There’s different turns and
Joy & Hurtin’
But we are always learnin’
We learn from the examples around us
Of how to love, how to trust
How to hate, how to hug
How to stay stronger
When hope is out of touch
& how to be adults
When we’ve evolved from being young
Through you,
I’ve grown to be the man I am
Knowing obstacles can be conquered
Because I’ve seen first hand
How you, as a Queen,
Have ruled unknown lands,
Controlled your own destiny,
And instilled your skills into a man
I thank you
You’ve given me the power of a King…
To make reality out of these dreams
That once looked impossible
When they were first seen
But are now something tangible
Because of your faith in me
Even when you didn’t think you could raise me
By yourself and on your own
You did it
Grandma would be proud
To see how you’ve come along
You are my example of how to be strong
And I’m sure many people have said many hurtful things
And doubted that you would succeed
But one phrase that erases all of that?
A Queen can raise a King
So thank you for raising me "
" Behind every King there is a Queen that has influenced him.." ~ Black Noize
"Coming in this world
Life is always an uncertain journey
There’s different turns and
Joy & Hurtin’
But we are always learnin’
We learn from the examples around us
Of how to love, how to trust
How to hate, how to hug
How to stay stronger
When hope is out of touch
& how to be adults
When we’ve evolved from being young
Through you,
I’ve grown to be the man I am
Knowing obstacles can be conquered
Because I’ve seen first hand
How you, as a Queen,
Have ruled unknown lands,
Controlled your own destiny,
And instilled your skills into a man
I thank you
You’ve given me the power of a King…
To make reality out of these dreams
That once looked impossible
When they were first seen
But are now something tangible
Because of your faith in me
Even when you didn’t think you could raise me
By yourself and on your own
You did it
Grandma would be proud
To see how you’ve come along
You are my example of how to be strong
And I’m sure many people have said many hurtful things
And doubted that you would succeed
But one phrase that erases all of that?
A Queen can raise a King
So thank you for raising me "
" Who would I be without a mother like you? Nothing but an uncrowned King.."
Friday, May 7, 2010
T.M.O.B.N.: Life Overload
This one is fairly long...just letting you know off rip, but im just releasing so that's expected...right??? Lol let's go:
Wat's good? When I last talked to ya'll I was still going through some things and was having a rough time but I think that has all changed for the better. I've gotten rid of alot of unnecessary things/people/drama and I think it's all a part of my own evolution as a person. (Btw always remember to Evolve and don't Revolve) When you begin maturing, the things that you used to "feed off of" as a child or young adult don't really give you the edge that you once desired. Drama and people go out of style and not that I was EVER one for it, but I know that I would allow it. I feel like life has been so much better now that Im fully livin' for myself and not givin' a fuck about the next person. I am truly my mama's child. She has been solo dolo for years and she's happy! She can tell me she's happy and I know it's true. Me and her both believe in a saying. " Why should I be surrounded by people that constantly make me miserable or bring me down when I could be to myself and happy? " That's SO true though!! So through these months of being to myself I've learned how to be happy. I don't need anybody else to make me happy and true there will always be days that I would LIKE to have someone by my side, I now know that it should NEVER be a necessity to have someone. Now...I will admit. There are some females that I would love to be with because I see that they could really help me out with what I've been going through but I dont need to be in a relationship anytime soon. There's still so many things I need to build up inside myself and plus me and love got beef. If anything, I just need somebody that I know got my best interest and ain't tryin' 2 find different tactics of how to break me down. No sir. (#NowBumpin: Kings Of Leon-Use Somebody....HUGE CHEESE Lol) & Btw ShoutOuts 2 my homegirl Daffy (whether you know it or not) you done really really helped me out these past couple of months & Ur a blessing in disguise :)
Recently, I started back writing. Like REALLY writing..Im the type of person that'll write 5 0r 6 works in some hours and I haven't done that in months until recently and I blame it on my songwriting group member Nyine. ShoutOuts even though u probably won't ever peep this lol. She posted a piece called Lyrics and ever since then it rekindled my passion for this writing shit that I do. I noticed that I haven't been passionate about ALOT of my loves (writing, rapping, poetry, etc.) for awhile, but I guess when you're broken down so much...you lose sight as to why you do something. But I think I'm ready to get off my ass and start pumpin' out some more music to y'all. It's been TOO long since I've been to the studio and recorded. I miss that shit. Something about being behind a microphone and dividing your heart and soul to folks...can't be matched by ANYTHING. I've recently been getting alot of beats from different producers and ROCKING them. I will have plenty of new material by the end of this summer. If it's in the cards, mixtapes WILL be dropped!
Now what I want to talk about is school. Im getting to the point where school has become a repititive obstacle that I've been tackling for ALL these years. There aint nothin new about it that truly inspires me. I have recently been considering dropping out. Being that I'ma person that likes to start what I finish IF I can, I will probably tough it out, but I'm uncertain as to whether I want to further my education RIGHT now. I'll keep y'all updated on my decision as the months pass.
Last thing I want to talk about is me myself. I've not only been stressed, but I've been depressed. Depression is something that is in my family and I believe I have seasonal depression as well as situational depression. My seasonal depression kicks in around the winter time. I tend to be always down around that time. My situational depression seems like it's never ending. For those that don't know, situational depression is just depression that is associated with the events going on around someone & Him Above knows I go through my FAIR amount of events. I've lost a lot of weight due to this which is why Im sure I look paper thin to y'all. Along with my OWN version of "getting through things" AND this depression, I've gone from 175 lbs in January to 140 lbs in April. NOT GOOD. But like I said, my own road to recovery is a far journey, but I AM able to get through things.
Im through speakin' my mind so until next time, (THANX 4 YA ATTENTION & LOVE!)
Wat's good? When I last talked to ya'll I was still going through some things and was having a rough time but I think that has all changed for the better. I've gotten rid of alot of unnecessary things/people/drama and I think it's all a part of my own evolution as a person. (Btw always remember to Evolve and don't Revolve) When you begin maturing, the things that you used to "feed off of" as a child or young adult don't really give you the edge that you once desired. Drama and people go out of style and not that I was EVER one for it, but I know that I would allow it. I feel like life has been so much better now that Im fully livin' for myself and not givin' a fuck about the next person. I am truly my mama's child. She has been solo dolo for years and she's happy! She can tell me she's happy and I know it's true. Me and her both believe in a saying. " Why should I be surrounded by people that constantly make me miserable or bring me down when I could be to myself and happy? " That's SO true though!! So through these months of being to myself I've learned how to be happy. I don't need anybody else to make me happy and true there will always be days that I would LIKE to have someone by my side, I now know that it should NEVER be a necessity to have someone. Now...I will admit. There are some females that I would love to be with because I see that they could really help me out with what I've been going through but I dont need to be in a relationship anytime soon. There's still so many things I need to build up inside myself and plus me and love got beef. If anything, I just need somebody that I know got my best interest and ain't tryin' 2 find different tactics of how to break me down. No sir. (#NowBumpin: Kings Of Leon-Use Somebody....HUGE CHEESE Lol) & Btw ShoutOuts 2 my homegirl Daffy (whether you know it or not) you done really really helped me out these past couple of months & Ur a blessing in disguise :)
Recently, I started back writing. Like REALLY writing..Im the type of person that'll write 5 0r 6 works in some hours and I haven't done that in months until recently and I blame it on my songwriting group member Nyine. ShoutOuts even though u probably won't ever peep this lol. She posted a piece called Lyrics and ever since then it rekindled my passion for this writing shit that I do. I noticed that I haven't been passionate about ALOT of my loves (writing, rapping, poetry, etc.) for awhile, but I guess when you're broken down so much...you lose sight as to why you do something. But I think I'm ready to get off my ass and start pumpin' out some more music to y'all. It's been TOO long since I've been to the studio and recorded. I miss that shit. Something about being behind a microphone and dividing your heart and soul to folks...can't be matched by ANYTHING. I've recently been getting alot of beats from different producers and ROCKING them. I will have plenty of new material by the end of this summer. If it's in the cards, mixtapes WILL be dropped!
Now what I want to talk about is school. Im getting to the point where school has become a repititive obstacle that I've been tackling for ALL these years. There aint nothin new about it that truly inspires me. I have recently been considering dropping out. Being that I'ma person that likes to start what I finish IF I can, I will probably tough it out, but I'm uncertain as to whether I want to further my education RIGHT now. I'll keep y'all updated on my decision as the months pass.
Last thing I want to talk about is me myself. I've not only been stressed, but I've been depressed. Depression is something that is in my family and I believe I have seasonal depression as well as situational depression. My seasonal depression kicks in around the winter time. I tend to be always down around that time. My situational depression seems like it's never ending. For those that don't know, situational depression is just depression that is associated with the events going on around someone & Him Above knows I go through my FAIR amount of events. I've lost a lot of weight due to this which is why Im sure I look paper thin to y'all. Along with my OWN version of "getting through things" AND this depression, I've gone from 175 lbs in January to 140 lbs in April. NOT GOOD. But like I said, my own road to recovery is a far journey, but I AM able to get through things.
Im through speakin' my mind so until next time, (THANX 4 YA ATTENTION & LOVE!)
Holla Back,
Black Noize
Monday, May 3, 2010
'Plenty Money Freestyle'
Yea, so Friday I had my radio appearance with WMTS 88.3 FM. I think it went pretty well. Bobby (The DJ) requested that I bust a freestyle and y'all know me. I stay rapping so here's the result. I KNOW I DONE SAID THIS LIKE A MILLION TIMES, but the levels are messed up on it. Don't tell me the levels are whack..I KNOW. Lol, adjust your volume and pay attention to the words. CHECK IT! http://omg.ly/x9yW