" I Realize I Can B Hella Selfish At Times...But DAMNNN...There R Plenty Of Tyms I Act Selfless N Do 4 Others. It Balances. Stop Lookin' At " My Dirty Rose, My Dirty Stems, And How I'm Leanin A Lil 2 Tha Side.." Ppl Focus 2 Much On Tha Negatives Of People, But Don't Give Two ...Thoughts About Their Positives. Admire The Positives, Notice, But Don't Focus On The Negatives. " ~Black Noize

I don't know. Lately I think that a lot of people, including myself, tend to focus on the negative aspects of a person, but never give the positive aspects time to show themselves or EVEN think of the fact that maybe it's NOT entirely a person's fault as to the fact that they ARE negative. I want to strive to appreciate the good things of a person, BUT it's MUCH harder to do that when people sometimes don't take the time to point out the good things about me. I KNOW that there are good things about myself, BUT that doesn't mean that everyone agrees with that. Understandable.

I think my goal for the next couple of months will be to make sure my positive aspects overshadow my negative aspects. I think that NOW is the time for self-reformation & rebirth. NOW is DEFINITELY the time. At the same time, it is also time for me to approach life and my observations of the people around me with a more optimistic outlook. Anyways, thanx 4 reading and I'll make sure to hitcha'll witta poem next time my mind leaks. Much Luv!

U Kno...I'm really just on some FUCKKKK Valentine's Day shyt right now. So I decided to write this piece, so check me out...

" It Aint Tym 2 B Nice...
FUCK That..
I'm Like,
" Take Luv
NO Luv BACK..."
There's NO Luv That
Needs 2 B Held
Wen Tha World Itself
Holds ME By Three Nails..
I SLIT Cupid's Neck
On Tha Way 2 Hell
And Used Tha Blood As A Shield
Against Tha Evils That Prevail..
BUT NOT EVEN LOVE'S BLOOD
Can Stop The Hurt Inhaled..
It Could ALL B Tha Perfect Tale
Us Cheesin'
Luv 2 Tha Deepest
But Even Valentines
Is A FAKE DAY
Spawned By FAKE FEELIN'S
Started 4 FAKE REASONS
Joinin Tha Hearts Of FAKE PEOPLE..
So FUCK It
I Don't Need It...
And If It's
" Faux Happiness And Genuine Pain "
Then U Aint Gotta Remember My Name
Consider Me A Stain
In Love's Sickest Game
That U JUST Wiped Away...
NO EMOTIONS FROM A KING
IS My Entire Grave
Cuz I'd Rather DIE BY MY WORDS
Than By Tha Knife Or Blade
That ANY Chick
Can Stick
Thru My Windpipe
ANY DAY...
But Anyways,
Sorry Dat My Heart
Is A Lil Lower N Degrees
But Tha Luv Of SELF B4 Any
Got Me Completely On Freeze
I'ma B Deletin' ANY Grief
Thru My Pens Bleedin'
Wen I Leave
So WHAT THA FUCK IS LOVE
Compared To What I Really Need??????....
...
And If Ur Askin'
What Exactly That Might B?
It's Only To Beautify Tha Monster
In The Mirror That I See...."

Why does it seem like things are crashing down? Damnnn....at times I slick think I'm losin' grips with who I am as a person. It's krazy...you tell yourself that " I would never do this...I could never do that..." but whose to say something can't change your WHOLE thought process??... If ya'll notice me changin' or somethin', don't mind me. It's just that being who I am AINT easy...and honestly, if ya'll THOUGHT the same way IIIII do...and go through SOME of the things I go thru....you'd go nuts or CLOSE to insane. I KNO I'ma stronggggg person...I really am, but...life gets the best of us sometimes, ya kno? Ehhh..but at the end of the day, I kno Him Above got me...and he GETS me and that's ALL i ever really need. Anyways, thanx 4 taking the time to read and B blessed. One Love!

New Year, New Piece, New Thoughts. It's Feelsz Good To Have Some Form Of A "Re-do Button" With This New Beginning. Now... Should I Encounter Problems Of The Old, This Is Where I Drop Them Off At....In My Poetry. Guess That'sz Wat I Did Wit This One...Check Me Out.

" 2 Speak Nothin'
Speaksz PLENTY...
2 Maintain A Room Tinted
Wit' Anger N Pain's Senseless...
U'D Neva Listen...
And We're Both Adults
But See...
I Handle MINE'S A Lil Diff'rent...
I Experimented
Wit Communication With You
And 2 My Amazement
Tha Seperation Of Two
Was Tha Destination That Bloomed
My Tearsz Can Reach Tha Roots
Of Tha STRANGEST OF FRUITS
But Could Neva Change U...
That'sz Tha STRANGEST OF TRUTH..
And It Angersz Me TOO!!!!
AND U KNOO!..
Actin' Baffled
Wen " I'm SORRY "
Could Shatter
Almost Half Tha Battle
Ur An Actor
N Tha Movie " LIFE "
But No Martin Or Eddie
Cuz Thea'sz Barely
Any Laughter...
I'd Feel Betta N A Casket
Maybe " HE WAS A GOOOOOD MAN...."
And Flowerbaskets
Would Have U Askin,
" How'd Tha Moment Pass Us?? "
And 2 Tha Question
My Cold Soul Would Answer,
" Damn It!...
U Took Tha Chance 4 Granted!!..
Did U Think I Was A Church??!!
U Kno..
Thea Wen It'sz Good
Or On Tha 1st
And For Wat It'sz Worth...
I DO LOVE YOU...
With EVERY Fiber
And Every Bloodstream
That Runs Thru...
But You Are A POISON
2 My Progressive Choicesz
And I Only WRITE This
Becuz I Haven't Developed
Tha Voice And
If You ONLY Knew
Tha Damage U've Caused..
U Would Speak As Much As I Do
By Not Speakin' AT ALL..."
Keepin' Silent
Wen It Hurts Tha Most
Wen Tha Tearsz Pour THICKER Than Blood
Keep It Closed
A Closed Heart That Is..
Cuz After All...
Ur An Ocean
And I'ma Mist
Or A Stream Occasionally Kissed
By Ur Mind
Do I Exist?!
Do U EVER Reminisce
And Realize That I DON'T
Need U 2 Assist?
I Don't Need ANYTHING
Cuz I've Created Tha Blueprints
2 Success Myself
N I Built It Brick By Brick
N EXCELLED...
PROPELLED By How YOU FAILED...
And With That?
I Scream, " Farewell!! "
Boardin' A Journey Unknown
Wishing, Yet NOT Wishing
We, TOGETHER
Could've Built A Happy Home
But..
I Guess That Tale's 4 Another Song..."


" Though A Connection May Have Been Made...Both Parties Must Keep Their End Of The Bargain. No Connection, No Relationship, No Love Should Contain A Person That Doesnt Give It Their All. But..That's Just My Idea...An Idea That I'll Just Keep Silent..." ~ Black Noize